Ok, ou want to know what I think? I think that I am going to act my senior year out in a hedonistic manor. Because I realized that I have been happy like zero persent of my high school life and it is because of the fact that my friends are immature little babies when it comes to me. They seem to think that I have no real autonomy and that I am a puppet who must be pulled by someone's strings all the time. Example:
Sophmore year there was larry, which I agree was not one of the best years of my life but me and larry had fun ok and no I do not regret my time spent with him.
Then there was last year when I basically did nothing that I actrually wanted to do because I just kept getting sicker and sicker and litterally feeling miserable the entire year even after got out of the hospital because I was just putting on this face that no one ever saw throought because none of my friends even really know me and they like to pretend they do.
No I have Jason, and they want me to give him up because he tells me to make my own decisions and really has no influence in things regarding debate because he could careless what I do. So I make my own decisions and they want to blame my actions and the fact that I FUCKING DON'T CARE ABOUT FUCKING DEBATE ANYMORE on Jason. go ahead guys. really. be immature like that see if I fucking care ok. its not going to make me ay less concerned about my health and any more in gear on debate for this year because for the last time ever since i got out of the hospital i wasn't enthused anymore.
so yeah. just deal ok and stop sending jonathan to call my house because I don't fucking care and he isn't going to make me ok so just stop. now because you have all pissed me off and I really don't want to take anymore of this shit. I have to mch other stuff to deal with right now.
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